Weak

Humanity sees us as weak, but we trust God..

Our enemies sees us as weak opponent, but we depend on God's strategy..

Weak is our haters only comment.. want to demoralise and discourage us...

Yes, we might look weak but strong in Him..

Dear dear, jiayou..

Walk faithfully...

Love you...

Think

I need to think critically...

I need to have clear mind...

I need to think rationally..

I need to pray earnestly...

Dear dear, let's think and pray

Love you

Left

Left with 19 days...

Left with packing

Left with memories..

Left with gratefulness..

Dear dear, let's make it an effort.. live to the fullest..

Jiayou..

Love you

Tough

Difficult application

Tough admission

Confusing culture

Tough people to handle....

I need to press on..

I need to buck up..

I need to hope...

Dear dear, thank you for your accompaniment... 

Love you..

Chasing

Chasing after our dreams require cost..

Chasing after our dreams require faith..

Chasing after our dreams require hope..

Chasing after our dreams require perseverance..

Chasing after our dreams require hardwork...

Lord, grant us strength and health..

Dear dear, jiayou..

Love you

What is faith?

Faith means uncertainties and undeterred by it...

Faith means planned but flexible...

Faith means holding unto but letting go as well..

Faith means trust in Him..

It's tough.. BUT... we shall walk by faith..

Dear dear, jiayou..

Love you

01122019

Left 29 days... 

Brand new lifestyle shall begin...

Expecting new process in the same path...

Excited but anxious...

But God holds the future...

Lord, grant us peace...

Dear dear, thank you for trusting me..

Love you

Turbulence

Air turbulence will come unannounce..

Life turbulence will come unnotice...

Air turbulence might be expected. .

Life turbulence should be expected all the time..

Air turbulence will cause discomfort..

Life turbulence will generate growth...

Keep the faith..dear dear..

Love you

Next

Next step is a step of faith

Next year will be a transition year..

Next time will be a waiting time...

Dear dear, thank you for believing in me..

Love you

Peace

I hope to experience peace more than positivism..

I rather to search for peace rather than emotionally pessimistic 

I pray for peace more than anything else...

Dear dear, may the peace of God continues to be with us..

Jiayou dear dear..

Love you

Nearer

Time draws nearer...

Future has become clearer...

Time draws closer

Excitement grows higher...

Time draws nearer

Completion of 2019 will hit dearer..

Time draws closer

Anxiety will become lesser...

Dear dear, thank you for your support...

Regardless how our future lies... 

Lpve you

Add oil

Add oil in our work

Add oil in our ministries

Add oil in our planning

Add oil in our prayers

Add oil in our devotion

Add oil dear dear in our physical, mental, emotion and spiritual...physical is not adding weight.. haha..

Love you dear dear.... 

Memorable birthday

I just want to create a memorable birthday for you... 

A clip for me to share my gratefulness

A clip that represent my appreciation

A clip.. that tells the world how much I love you...

It is going to be tough next year.. but I am not afraid..

With you and God... i have everything...

Love you my dear dear...

2 Nov

One day before your birthday...

Wish I can spring some suprises...too bad.. you are too smart to guess right..

At the same time, I can't keep on secret from you...

I hope we will have enjoyable time at Grand Lexis, PD tomorrow...

I have nothing too luxurious to give to you...

But I am giving my best to my darling..

That is my everything, my life (besides surrendering to God)..

Love you dear dear...

Support

You gave your endless support... 

Encouraging support..

Emotional support..

You throw your support without knowing the result...

Your support means a lot to me..

Dear dear, 

Thank you so much...

Love you...

A

Accompaniment and Accomplishment
Abundance and Astonishment
Arrival and Aids
Accreditation and Appreciation

These are As that we are waiting for:

Dear dear, jiayou
Love you

1st Mission Trip

Dear dear,
This is your first official mission trip..
Sometimes you will feel uncomfortable,
At times, joyful...
Sometimes, irritable..
At times, peace..

Just go with the flow.. God is good..

Love you...

1st Mission Trip

Dear dear,
This is your first official mission trip..
Sometimes you will feel uncomfortable,
At times, joyful...
Sometimes, irritable..
At times, peace..

Just go with the flow.. God is good..

Love you...

She is back (Oct)

She is back to think of new dishes;
She is back thinking what to cook...
She is back preparing ingredients..
She is back to prepare meals for me..
She is back as chef...

Dear dear, thank you for your creativity and love..
Love you so much...

People

There will be people who will look down on us; thereafter there will be tendency people will feel threatened by our success..
There will be people who will look down on us regardless how success we are...
There will be people who will respect us no matter what circumstances we are..
There will be people who will love and concern us...

Dear dear, thank you for standing by me...
Love you...

Becareful

Please becareful when you are walking, crossing the road, buying things.. etc
Please be extra careful when you are in hurry...
Please be extremely careful when you intend to walk faster than usual..
Please becareful when I will get worry when you are hurt..
Your pain is my pain too...

Dear dear, please be careful...
Love you..

Keep fighting

Keep fighting to understand who I am;
Keep fighting to understand mysterious God;
Keep fighting to understand God's path for me;
Keep fighting to understand the humanity pathway;
Keep fighting no matter how tedious it is;
Just keep fighting...

Dear dear,
keep fighting.. love you....

Final 3 months

1st October 2019,
Entering into final 3 months of pastoral..
Excited but anxious as well
Uncertainty but hopeful too
Stress but joyful..

I'm not too sure, but i am peaceful now..

Dear dear, let's journey together..
Love you

PRAY

Pray earnestly
Pray joyfully
Pray faithfully
Pray gracefully

Dear dear, I believe prayers will really grant us a peace of mind...

Jiayou together, LOVE YOU

R

Remembering and Reminiscing
Recollecting and Reconciliation
Reinventing and Refocusing
Renewing and Reformation

These are what we are yearning and keep learning..

Dear dear, jiayou
Love you

A

Astonished and Accomplishment
Amazement and Abundance
Appraising and Accountability
Acknowledgement and Approachability

This is what we need to learn:

Dear dear, jiayou
Love you

B

Bonding
Blessings
Becoming
Befriending

These are Bs that we are experiencing..

Dear dear, jiayou..
Love you

C

Choosing and Contemplation
Correcting and Controlling
Conditions and Consuming

There are C's that we need to consider and praying...

Dear dear, thank you for standing by my side...
Love you

P

Patience and Perseverance
Prayer and Planning

Proclaiming God's Provision
Potential...PhD

These are P's that we required, dear dear...

Love you

Last 4 months

Last 4 months of 2019;
Last 4 months of service;
Last 4 months of temporary "separation";
Last 4 months of learning before next process;

Dear dear,
Thank you for your patience and prayers...
We shall experience new lifestyle in 2020...

Jiayou... love you

D-Day

Going to meet President later to share on my future...
I'm not scared...
I'm just afraid I will forget to share..
I'm afraid I will not be able to answer his questions in due time..

I just want to share what is in my mind...
I just want to tell him how I feel...

Dear dear,
Thank you for your support, love and prayer...
Love you..

Tough

Yeah, it's tough..
The challenges were there, are there and will be there...
Yeah, I'm afraid..not all the times..
But I have faith as well..
I gotta to trust...

Dear dear, thank you for trusting me...
Thank you for loving me..
Thank you for praying...

Love you too

88

Our official date for dating anniversary...
11th Anniversary Dating Anniversary, dear dear..

Always challenging,
Always loving,
Always caring,
Always understanding..

Thank you dear dear..
Love you

Planning 4.0

Next year seemingly cloudy sky..
Next year seemingly strong wind..
Next year seemingly thunderstorm..
Next year seemingly clear sky...
Next year seemingly interesting..

I does not know..
I don't want to predict...

But dear dear, God is with us..
Love you...

Planning 3.0

Our planning to travel overseas abruptly end due to tightening financial next year..
We need to plan for something special..
We will be planning something that is meaningful..

Even though, I am worried but I know I should stick to the vision..

Dear dear, thank you for your patience..
Love you..

Planning 2.0

After last night discussion, we have to change our planning...
Now we opt for simple planning,
We plan to travel for shorter holiday..
We plan to go to JB..
We plan to stay in a hotel..
Or we even plan to have nothing.. haha..

Dear dear, thank you for your understanding..
Thank you for your compromising with me..
Love you so much..
I promise you that I will bring you travel as many places I could afford...

Planning 1.0

We plan to go oversea for vacation,
We plan to go Sydney,
We plan to stay Airbnb,
We plan to fly with Scoot,

Yet,
I will be not working next year,
We are lacking funding,
We are not financially stable,
What should we do?

I want to bring her for a holiday...
Lord, if this is Your will...
May You bless us....

Dear dear, so sorry to trouble next year...
Thank you for your understanding and love...
Love you...

Welcome to August

Welcome to August...
Welcome to brand new month...
Welcome to new challenges..
Welcome to brand new day..
Welcome to new heights of our lives..
Everyday full of grace and mercy...

Dear dear, difficulties will be here, but with God.. we will be able to walk through..

Love you.. jiayou...

Yeah... 2 more days

2 more days...
We can meet, hugged.. embrace...
We can hold hands..
We can feel our physical accompaniment..
We can discuss and eat together..
We can walk together...

Lord, thank you for this opportunity..

Dear dear, see you then..
Love you..

Just

Just be who we are because we know this is how God shape us..
Just be who we are because we will not be able to be people ideal expectation..
Just be who we are because we know our own strengths and weaknesses..
Just be who we are because only then we will be able to maximise ourselves..

Dear dear, jiayou
Love you

True

Yeah, it is true that I miss you..
It is true that I really love you..
It is true that I enjoy your accompaniment..
It is true that we can get frustrated at times..

But it is all about love..

Dear dear, jiayou..
Love you..

7/7

7th July... 7/7... 7月7日

Anything special?
Nothing special for us... but I praise God for 7/7 as I will be meeting my dear wife later in the afternoon..
Miss her so much because my love for her is unwavering...
Miss her so much because my love for her is rooted in Christ..

Dear dear, see you later..
Love you

You are the best 1.0

You are the best because you are the one who stole my heart.. lol..
You are the best because you are creative cook...
You are the best because you always give the best to other people...

Dear dear, you are the best..
I love you...

1st day of 2nd half 2019

It is going to be nervy, excited and anxious half year...
But I am not scared because I know my God who holds my future...
I am blessed with excellent companion/wife to journey with me...

Dear dear, let us learn to be patience as we continue to seek Him...
Love you...

End of first half of 2019

What had happened in the past 6 months?
- Completed our first US trip together
- Attended my graduation
- Planning for my future...

What will happened in next 6 months?
- Brazing myself for GRE test
- Doing my best for the church ministry...

How about my marriage?
- Continue to be funny, lovely, simple..

Dear dear, thank you for everything..
Love you to the max...

Support 7.0

Your cooked food always fill up my tummy...
Your cooked food will always be my great support..
Your cooked food supports my day...
Your cooked food satisfies my day...

Dear dear, thank you so much...
Love you...

Support 6.0

Your support has been contagious..
Your support is uplifting..
Your support goes around the world..
Your support is unwavering..

Your love enhance your support to me..

Thank you, my dear dear..
Love you

Support 5.0

Your words of encouragement reminded me that I'm qualified...
Your words of support always uplifting...
Your imagination has become a great emotional support to me..

It is emotional and grateful..

Dear dear, thank you for having faith in me...
Love you...

I really wish i can be there (usa) and graduate with an academic phd.. hahaha...

Support 4.0

Your method of supporting me can be humorous...
You know my dream..
You support me to chase after my dream...
You willing to forgo your own dream, just for the sake of my dream...

Dear dear, you are priceless and precious to me...
How can I pay back to you?? ...
I only can write.. I love you...
Love you so much...

Support 3.0

When you told me not to worry, I know you want to bear my burdens...
When you told me it is ok, I know you want to do your best in fulfilling my dream..
When you told me look at the bright side, I know your support is unwavering...

I am deeply touched...
I feel vulnerable...
But at the same time...
I know things will work out...

Dear dear, thank you again...
Your support is endless...
Love you

Support 2.0

Whenever I see your smiling, I know dear dear deeply support me..
Whenever I heard you telling me, it is ok.. I feel comforted and I know you are at my back supporting me..
You are there to support regardless what kind of decision I will make...
Your support emboldens me..

Thank you dear dear...
Love you so much

Support 1.0

You have been my supporter all the time.. regardless my success or failure..
You have been supportive of my work regardless good or bad..
You have been my great companion through thick and thin...

Dear dear, I know you will be my best supporter of my life..
I thank God for you...
Love you...

Next 2.0

Next stop.. uncertain
Next stop.. afraid..
Next stop.. changes
Next stop.. challenges..
Next stop.. fear...

But i know..
Next stop will bring better future..
Next stop will seek greater breakthrough...

Lord, grant me wisdom..

Dear dear, let us be strong and continue to seek the Lord..
Love you

Next

What is next for us?
New lifestyle??..
New working environment??...

What is next??..
Searching for peace
Hoping for the best...

Lord, grant me the wisdom and discernment..

Dear dear, thank you for bearing with me..
Love you....

Almost

Almost there...
Clocking in...
New journey..
A new status...

Almost there...
Thinking rationally..
Discerning..
A new position..

Almost there...
Need courage..
Need to be bold enough..
A new step..

Lord, grant me wisdom...

Dear dear, thank you for your patience..
Love you...

Thinking

We could not just think...
Think with wisdom..
Think with discernment...
Think with hope...
Think with direction...
Think with prayer...
Think with purpose..

Dear dear...
Jiayou... not easy with any decision...
Love you...

My birthday wishes...

My birthday is SIMPLE:

Surrendering our lives to God
Improvising our lives
Memorising our sweet moments
Potential new direction
Loving God and you forever
Encouraging one another..

Dear dear,
Thank you for making this trip possible..
Love you

Countdown 1.0

Countdown to US trip..
Drawing near...
Never expected this to happen...
But it is right before us...

Thank you dear dear for making everything possible..
Thank you for your love and affirmation...

Jiayou...
Let us make things possible in God's sight...

Future 6.0

Struggles to know...
Struggles to receive feedback..
Struggles to stand firm..
Struggles to affirm...
Struggles to understand...

BUT I am not afraid...
Because
My God is with me... I will wait...
My dear wife is supporting me...

Dear dear, thank you so much..
I thank God for your patience...your faith... your love...

Love you muchy..

Future 5.0

Future...
Sometimes it look bleak;
At times it look visually blur;
But it can be clear..

Why sometimes bleak, blur..and clear?
It could be lack of courage, confidence and contemplation...

Sometimes i feel sorry for my dear dear... i let you down...coz I am indicisive...

Dear dear, i will try my best...
Thank you for your love and patience..

Jiayou together

Future 4.0

I think i will need
- boldness
- courage
- wisdom
- hope
- understanding
- discerning

In order to make a decision that honor and glorify God's name...

Lord, grant a peace of mind so that I will know and differentiate..

Dear dear, jiayou...
It's tough I know especially I could not make a decision at the moment..
Thank you so much for your patience...

Love you...

You know that...

You know that.. I love you...
You know that.. I care for you...
You know that.. yet you still struggled emotionally...

I am sorry for letting you down..
I am sorry for not able to give you full security..
I am so sorry dear...
I am so sorry for not able to give you full assurance..

That's why you struggled inwardly...

I will not be able to promise heaven and earth...
I will not be able to promise there will be no misunderstanding..

I am sorry for any misunderstandings..
I am sorry for my actions that lead you not able to trust me fully...

Dear dear, I love you..
I am sorry.. please forgive me..

Jiayou...

Future 3.0

Praying for courage...
Praying for events that will shape courage..
Praying for God's promise of courage..
Praying for steps of faith
Praying for affirmation...

Dear dear,
Jiayou.. i know it is tough..
Love you

Future 2.0

Sometimes I am afraid that I choose the wrong path...
I am afraid that you will be burdened..
I am afraid that I make regretable move..
I am afraid because I do not have the courage...

Dear dear,
Thank you for having patience..
Thank you for bearing with me..
Pray that I will have the courage...

Love you...😘

Future (again) 1.0

What will be our next move?
What will be our options?
What will be our challenges?
What will be our fears?

Yet,
What will be our hopes?
What could be the best option?

God is all ever knowing..

Dear dear,
Thank you for striving together with me.
Sometimes I am undecided of where should direction the steering wheel, but you keep the faith..

Thank you..

Love you so much..

Lord....

Lord, teach me steps of life...
Lord, help me to discern values of life..
Lord, embrace me in diversity...
Lord, strengthened my faith...

As I continued to search for next stage or passion of life... help me to be rooted in You..

Lord, enable me to see perspectives...
Lord, love me..

Dear dear, thank you for your encouragement all these years..
Without you, nothing is desirable...
Thank you Lord... for my wife...
Love you...

Amazing

You are amazing, dear dear...
You are lovely and cute...
Always place others above yourself..
Always think how to bless others..

Thank you for amazing love for me..
Thank you for travelling week in and week out to take care a "sick" person..

Love you...

Ahead 2.0

We are suprised by God's work..
We are comforted by God's word..
We are encouraged by our friends..
We are loved by our family members...

What is ahead? I really don't know..
But I know one thing..

Just get prepared for my graduation...
I am excited, nervous..grateful... thanksful..

Dear dear, thank you for believing in me...
Love you

Ahead 1.0

What is ahead of us?
I'm not sure..
What I can plan for us?
I'm doubting..
What is our future?
At times, I'm lost...

But dear dear, you are my focus...
You are my love (apart from God la..lol)
You are my sunshine...

With you, i will move on..
With you, i will keep my motivation...

Apart from thanking God..i just want to say.. thank you dear dear..
Love you..

Secure

When I am secure, I know there is trust
When I am secure, I know there is love
When I am secure, I know there is hope
When I am secure, I know there is joy
When I am secure, I know there is peace...

Without security, I will be lacking what are stated above..

Dear dear, thank you for everything..
Love you..

March 2019

Time flies...
Time passed by without us knowing...
It is March 2019...
God is so good...
Thank you to many great people...

But one person who stands next to me...that is my dear dear..
Tells me I'm above average..
Thank you for having faith in me...

Love you so much, my dear dear..
Time flies...

Serving

What is serving?
- Serving is my response to God's gift

Why is serving?
- To remind myself of God's gift
- To reflect on God's love to others
- To examine our state of heart..

Dear dear, love you..
Jiayou in our serving today oo...

Love you

Taking care of you is not a responsibility;
It is more than that...
Pampering you is not an action;
It is more than that...

Doing all these things is not to show people how much I have done...

But I do because I love... regardless how physically tired I am...

Dear dear,
Love you..don't give up...

Valentine 2019

2019

Time flies into our 11th Anniversary of Valentine..
It is just so special
We are in this relationship..
We are ONE even though things were not smooth...
But we persevere...

Coz we know God knows...

Dear dear, love you...
May 2019 Valentine proved once again our loves for one another..
We love coz God first loves us...
Jiayou

Don't worry 2.0

Are you sure what is tomorrow outcome?
Are you sure what is the result?

If we are unsure, why we are taxing ourselves today?

Just do our best today, have faith in God...

Dear dear, jiayou..
Love u...

Don't worry 1.0

Don't worry for it won't change tomorrow outcome;
Don't worry as it will drain out today's strength;
Don't worry when we cannot control our future;

Stand firm, dear dear...

Love you, don't worry about tomorrow...

CNY 2019

It is good to celebrate CNY together after lapse of one year...
Together we smile;
Together we laugh;
Together we discuss;

Simple meal over the table;
Much love...

Dear dear, thank you for everything
Love you...

Trust 2.0

Trust takes time to build..
Trust can be crush in seconds..
Trust speaks on belief...
Trust can be discouraging...

Trust can be healing moments..
Trust helps deepen relationship..

Hence.. do trust..

Dear dear, jiayou..
Love you

Trust 1.0

Trust is important for strong relationship;
Trust is fundamental for continuous relationship;
Trust is imminent for exemplary relationship;

Relationship is impeccable if there is a trust..

I thank God for my dear wife for the trust..

Dear dear, love you..
Jiayou...

Waiting 3.0

Waiting to write thesis
Waiting to write sermons
Waiting to write reports
Waiting to write feedback

But we need to wait for inspiration
For reflection
For meditation..

Lord, grant us wisdom and strength to endure..

Dear dear, jiayou...
Love you

Waiting 2.0

Waiting for inspiration tests endurance..
Waiting for result tests patience...

Waiting is never come to the top of our list...
Waiting seemingly to be a past tense in our culture...

Waiting creates creativity...
Waiting creates innovation..

I pray that i will have the patience to wait upon the Lord..

Dear dear.. jiayou too...
Love you

Waiting 1.0

Waiting for boarding..
Waiting for my turn...

Waiting requires me to be alert..
Waiting requires me to be patience..

Waiting can be a waste of time if under utilised...
Waiting can be a good platform of rest..

Waiting helps to reflect..
Waiting helps to re-energise..

Waiting can be fun;
Waiting can be bored at times..

But I do not mind..

As long as I can see my dear dear later...
Love you...

First day of 2019

Anniversary....

Could be it be our 8th or 9th or 10th?
Whatever years we could be in..

I give thanks for the time of togetherness...
I give thanks for the process that we went through and is going to go through..
We will stand tall after this year..

Because God knows and He loves us...

Dear dear, jiayou bah..love you..
Don't give up...